WhimsyCure

Everything feels like starting over again :) The magic is new and familiar. Standing on only my own...

Thu, 18 Apr 2013 18:06:20 -0400

Everything feels like starting over again :) The magic is new and familiar. Standing on only my own two feet is comforting and challenging at the same time. This feels like me.

Every morning <3

Sun, 31 Mar 2013 19:11:19 -0400

Every morning <3

Note to myself: GROW UP.

Tue, 01 Jan 2013 11:53:07 -0500

Note to myself: GROW UP.

It's not the destination

Sat, 15 Dec 2012 22:46:37 -0500

Every day I am learning more about myself, about the world, and about how to choose peace. I am not yet graceful enough, I do not always land on the target of my destination, but I am trying to at least make this awkward stumbling around seem like fun while I am doing it.

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Sun, 02 Dec 2012 16:58:17 -0500

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Sort of suffering :/ Need a vacation.

Fri, 16 Nov 2012 20:28:04 -0500

Sort of suffering :/ Need a vacation.

"Comparison is the thief of joy."

Fri, 21 Sep 2012 21:46:35 -0400

“Comparison is the thief of joy.”

globalstreetfashion: Hello mister hen! This style is just...

Fri, 21 Sep 2012 19:16:59 -0400

globalstreetfashion:

Hello mister hen!

This style is just adorable! It is the same color scheme and style of my room!

globalstreetfashion: Little ducky skirt ❤ I am so in love with...

Thu, 13 Sep 2012 07:28:42 -0400

globalstreetfashion:

Little ducky skirt ❤

I am so in love with this look!

Strong

Fri, 07 Sep 2012 12:22:34 -0400

This weekend, I will begin packing up the room that I have had since I was 17. It has been eleven years here in this house. There was so much hope in my heart when my family first moved here. It was a fresh start. It was a do-over. On the contrary, I learned that the starting over has to be a process that happens inside of each individual person. Moving to a new place does not change the flaws in a person’s character. One cannot leave the excess of emotional baggage from their past behind at the old household. My father still spewed the same poison from his tongue, my mother still had the same pain in her heart. And I… I still carried the same disappointments.

Now, I am moving out. Not for any of the reasons listed above, I am leaving peacefully. I have a better opportunity elsewhere. I hit the “start fresh” button a long time ago. There were changes that I wanted to make inside of myself. Increase my faith, become wiser, understand finances, develop my dreams, finish college. I have completed some of these and I am still struggling with others, but what I know is that I am stronger today than I ever was before. I have suffered disappointment so often now that I realize just what a strong woman I have become. I guess… I am sort of a grown-up now. It feels crazy.

vvolf-souls: o-dessa: whitneychantalle: ohmy lovely omg...

Thu, 06 Sep 2012 23:17:10 -0400

vvolf-souls:

o-dessa:

whitneychantalle:

ohmy

lovely

omg loveee <333

dainty-beautiful-love!

Photo

Thu, 06 Sep 2012 23:10:31 -0400

While I was painting the walls of my new place and pouring tiny amounts of sunny yellow paint into...

Tue, 04 Sep 2012 11:06:11 -0400

While I was painting the walls of my new place and pouring tiny amounts of sunny yellow paint into the metal tray, I felt like I was signing the papers that start my release into freedom. The windows were down to prevent a build up of fumes and the heat was beating down on me (because the sun sets on that side of the house), but I truly felt like this is where I want to be right now.

Secrets

Sat, 25 Aug 2012 07:16:36 -0400

I am afraid of what will happen to my family financially when I finally move out in a few weeks… What are you keeping secret?

And life goes on, with or without you.

Wed, 22 Aug 2012 08:12:36 -0400

And life goes on, with or without you.

Photo

Mon, 20 Aug 2012 01:15:00 -0400

Wanting to grow up!

Sun, 19 Aug 2012 03:16:58 -0400

I am a grown woman and I should have the courage to ask a friendly, handsome, intelligent man for his number when we have flirty chemistry together. So tell me why I couldn’t do that 2 nights ago when my very own McDreamy med student started talking to me at work and suggested I read some books by his favorite author? Am I hopeless?

Insomnia

Wed, 15 Aug 2012 02:54:14 -0400

I like to ignore the dark shadows in the corners of my room. Thinking about dusting the beginnings of webs on the wall. Looking at cracks in the ceiling paint. Hearing “hum, hum, hum” from my box fan set on low. Seeing cups that need to be taken to the kitchen and a pile of laundry ready to be washed. Trying to forget the reason why I wrote about love. Trying not to think about the body, now ashes, sitting in my brother’s home. Ignoring conversations that need to be had. Feel like I am being ignored by people from who I’d like attention. Just cannot sleep.

My big brother died.

Sat, 11 Aug 2012 13:45:00 -0400

On Tuesday, I came home from work to hear the news that my oldest brother had died. There are so many strange emotions going on inside of my family. He had been adopted by another family at a young age, but as a teenager, we came back into contact with him and my oldest sister. I cannot understand the thinking or mindset of their adopted mother, but, she hates us; the biological family. Or is afraid of us. I’m not quite sure. Anyways, we’re not invited to his service with their family, so we have to plan our own.

Life feels interrupted by death; but maybe death has actually been interrupted by moments of being truly alive. If this is all we have, surely it is a blessing. Most of us aren’t quite sure what to do with our lives, but I tell you, when someone dies, you know that our purpose has something to do with love. What is your purpose?

Certainly, you felt you gained more by my staying and I felt I gained more by my leaving.

Sat, 04 Aug 2012 11:36:10 -0400

Certainly, you felt you gained more by my staying and I felt I gained more by my leaving.